My Personal Havana Syndrome
Navigating the bad energy that surrounds us. The evils of modern medicine.
I was getting ready to chop some vegetables in the kitchen yesterday afternoon when suddenly I was hit with an acute and severe wave of feeling faint and then everything flipping upside down. My vision went dark for a moment and I got very, very dizzy. I held onto the cabinet and that initial wave passed, but my head was then throbbing. Since then, I have been feeling fairly dizzy.
Prior to this, I was feeling relatively good. Now this is not something that is new, although thankfully it doesn’t happen that frequently. But ever since my gut illness of 2017 I have been prone to these bouts of what my ENT thinks might be vestibular migraines. I thought they had been getting better, but in the last month I’ve been undergoing some stress and ate some bad Thai food, and my gut got messed up. And then I went to the dentist for a tooth cleaning, and it seems that about 2 weeks or so after a visit to the dentist, I will get one of these sudden hits.
(By the way, if you could send me some good vibes, I really appreciate it because I’m extremely frustrated about this, especially because I’m a holistic practitioner, and I can’t seem to heal myself.)
Weirdly enough, my symptoms are actually quite similar to what is now being called Havana Syndrome, which is a weird illness that government officials get that is suspected to be caused by directed energy weapons such as microwaves.
Now I don’t think I’m being personally targeted because I am not a government official, and these problems started before I was doing this blog.
However, the thought has occurred to me that, when I’m having this these sudden bouts, which are extremely scary, that maybe there is something else going on in the atmosphere around me. Maybe someone’s sending a directed energy weapon to somebody else, and I just happen to be in the path of it. If you look up the symptoms of Havana Syndrome, a lot of them are similar to what I have suffered, particularly the “sudden onset” part.
These symptoms have happened in three different states, Texas, Florida, and Maryland. But I am now living in the suburbs of the Washington DC area, so if somebody is sending microwaves to hit people, I’m in a good area for it.
(BTW, I did get a digital X-ray at the dentist, but if that had an impact I think it would have been more immediate, and the radiation is supposed to be much lower than traditional X-rays.)
Now, we have this world right now where the energies are really bad, both literally and figuratively. And, I do wonder whether there are energies, or maybe if it’s even 5G, that are bothering me. I’m not sure what I can do about them. (I do suspect that much of my problem possibly lies in a persistent viral infection in my gut, and perhaps this makes me more vulnerable to other energies as well.)
The Evil That Surrounds Us
Then there are the spiritual and emotional energies. And many of you can tell that there’s a lot of darkness on the planet right now. One of my challenges is to try to keep myself clear and full of light in this place of darkness, which is particularly challenging when I don’t feel so great.
When my brain is being scrambled by whatever it is, I tend to feel more irritable and less charitable towards others.
I recently consulted with a teacher in India who told me I should just focus on healing my emotions and don’t even try to heal my physical stuff, because if I just heal my emotions, the physical stuff will get better.
So I’m not opposed to that. I like to approach things from multiple angles, and so I’ve been working recently on those emotions. And the main emotion that I’m trying to clear is anger.
The problem is there are a lot of things to be genuinely angry about, and I’m having a hard time letting go of the anger. It’s not just anger, it has turned to hate in some cases. I know we as so-called spiritual people aren’t supposed to feel these feelings, but I’m just gonna be honest and say that’s what I feel.
For example. when I go on, Twitter / X now, for some reason Twitter is feeding me a lot of pro-covid vaccine propaganda. And it pisses me off.
I don’t know if it’s because I accidentally followed the wrong person or if there’s somebody, not Elon Musk, an underling, who has decided to tweak the algorithms because of their personal vendetta against anti-vaxxers. All I know is I’m constantly seeing these ridiculous posts by people who are doubling down on how safe and effective the covid vaccines are.
Recently, there was an incident where a child supposedly died of measles, and, of course, this got everybody in a flurry blaming the anti-vaxxers. And I got really, really mad because these same people don’t seem to care if a child gets killed by a covid vaccine. And their arrogance and ridiculousness - especially since two covid vaccines have been pulled from the market for literally killing people - is astonishing to me. So I get really angry, and I do argue with them sometimes, which is completely pointless, but, I just get very, very frustrated.
It’s not just that, it’s this whole culture that we’re in. I’m not a big fan of the woke stuff. It’s basically a cult that’s being shoved in our faces 24/7. And, if you disagree with the cult, they will punish you severely.
So, it is a very dysfunctional environment that we live in, at least here in the United States, and probably most of the West. I don’t have a good answer to to deal with it. I try to be as generous as I can with these people. Many of them are just brainwashed, and they don’t know any better, and they’re well meaning.
But I just can’t stand the way our culture is right now. I can’t stand the media. I can’t stand the people who are leading us. I just can’t stand it. And so a lot of this is a natural reaction. The problem is it really isn’t very good for your health, and because I have such chronic health things going on, I really just need to clear it. So I tried to clear it in the last week or so, and I’ve just found myself really stuck.
Part of myself was stuck because I don’t want to clear it, because I’m mad. And when I’m mad, I kinda wanna sit in it and just be righteous in my anger. And part of just seems impossible to clear.
I just think that there’s a lot of evil behind what’s going on. I mean, it’s literal evil. And so I’m kind of struck with, Well, how do I be loving towards what is literally evil?
Is the Modern Western Medicine System Evil?
I have a friend who has a father who’s needing care, and he’s in a country where there’s so-called universal health care. But the problem with that universal health care is it’s terrible, it’s subpar, and they don’t provide any sort of informed consent for the elderly patient or the kids in this case. As in, you can’t even find out what meds are being prescribed!
I’ve come to this conclusion that much of the Western medical system is actually driven by evil. Now I know there’s a lot of people who go into it because they’re good people and they want to help people.
But there’s possibly an equally if not greater number of people who go into Western medicine not because they genuinely care about people, but because they’re looking to elevate themselves and their egos by having a profession that they can wield around like a weapon, telling everybody else how great and smart they are.
When I see these doctors on social media bashing people who have concerns about vaccine safety, and they’re not being in any way judicious or kind, I don’t think they’re doing it because they genuinely care that some kid died of measles. I think they’re doing it because their ego is being attacked when we question Western medicine. It’s all about their ego.
Archons and Loosh? WTF?
Now beyond that, I start to wonder whether there is this evil force behind Big Pharma and Western corporate medicine. Some people have talked about the origins of the name pharmakeia, which is supposedly related to witchcraft. I’m not so sure I’m concerned about that sort of thing, but the medical industry makes money off of people suffering, and it makes money off of people not getting well, but just having their symptoms managed.
There’s a theory in some obscure spiritual circles that there are Archons who are encircling our planet spiritually who get benefits off of sucking on our energy. Our energy is what is called loosh, and the Archons feed off of our loosh in order to to grow and expand their control. I am starting to wonder whether the medical system is actually an Archon system that is feeding off our loosh. Now maybe not literally, but I mean metaphorically speaking.
So when I get really angry about all this stuff, it’s very hard for me to let it go because it’s everything is very deep and intertwined and there’s so much darkness on the planet. But it is certainly not serving me to hold on to it, so I’m not sure what to do.
On Peter Hotez
So yesterday, I tried to meditate a little bit, and I’m not feeling very well. I was reading Hazrat Inayat Khan, who’s a universal Sufi. And he was talking about looking at things from another person’s point of view and trying to get into their shoes.
So I was like, alright. I’m going try to get into the shoes of that Peter Hotez and try to have more compassion for him. Peter Hotez is one of the leading nasty pro-vaxxers who is extremely insulting to anybody who has any criticisms. For example, he’s constantly calling people antisemitic who have concerns about mRNA vaccines, despite the fact that some of the leading voices are, in fact, Jewish, such as Bret Weinstein and Steve Kirsch.
So, anyway, I tried to connect with Peter Hotez, and what I got was this snarling, nasty, demonic energy that just pushed me back. And I was like, Well, that’s not really working.
Now was that just my projection, or was I really picking up on the energy around Peter Hotez? I can’t say for sure because I’m not at my best right now, but I will say that, I did not succeed in my attempt to try to feel some compassion towards Peter Hotez.
The best I can do is try to send light to Peter Hotez whenever I think of him, even if he doesn’t deserve it, because that’s the only thing that can change anything for the better, really.
So, I’m really working on this because, ultimately, I want to get to a place where I can certainly speak it out against the evil, but I don’t want to take it inside of me. Because that’s the trap of the anger. If we hold onto the anger, then we’re letting the evil inside of us.
And I feel like I’ve allowed this in, so I’m just trying to release it as best I can - in part for my health, but in part because as a spiritual person I don’t want to become that which I despise.
So, that’s my story for now, and I hope that you can send me some positive energy because I could really use it at this moment.
I’m extremely frustrated, not only personally, but also with the world, and I want to be in a better place. Thank you.
Prayer that will make evil spirits flee.
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